` Friday, November 25, 2005
Baby, I'm sorry.. sumtimes, my temper is real bad but i dun mean it. I was just releasing sterams.. sorie baby.. Public apology.. Dun ignore me.. Hehe.. haha.. Take care.. I love you.. Dun so stress.. sorie. sorie sorie.. (pull ear) sorie.. -.=
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` Thursday, November 24, 2005
Oo.. I'm so tired.. so so tired until i fell sick.. Hmm, went to J's plc and i actually fell aslp there.. Oh my, i cant blie it.. Haiz.. Maybe i was just too tired.. But nvm, i still rest alot today.. I din go sch today.. Went to the doc and he told me " you are just having a fever and some cold". I prescribe u some medicine. ......... Rest well.." and he goes on and on.. But nv give me MC.. wth.. haha.. hmm, heard there is CA on BIS but i din go.. haiz.. miss CA.. sad man.. But i will buck up on work on my BIS. Feel v relieved bcoz most of my project i have completed them yesterday.. Yippie.. Now no stress on me.. Haha.. Better me.. speedy recovery.. I miss Jason.. Haiz..
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` Wednesday, November 23, 2005
StrXss is in XvXryone's lifX. Can anyone liveX a life w/o strXss? If thXrX's one, pls lXt mX noX. so i can lXarn it frm him/hXr and sprXad it to XvXryone i noX so this world will bX strXss-frXX.. I rXli duNo what is bXcoming of mX. It's rXal bXing mX in lifX bcoz lifX sXXms XxtrXmXly hard for mX. I love to bX sumonX normal but can i rXli be with so many problXms i'm facing now? I rXli havX no answXr to that. Can sumonX just fill mX in about that? I bXt no onX undXrstand what i'm going thru bcoz saying is XasiXr than donX.
MaybX you guys rXading my blog will think i'm crazy but who carXs. Say all you want. If your saying can solvX my probs, i dun mind you pplX saying morX.
Haiz, I think i'm unsound up thXrX.. Duno.. just fXXl likX shutting up.. Do my own stuff.. gXt it all donX with for thX day.. F*cking pissXd with pplX who dun do thXir work. Damn.. who carXs anyway.
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` Tuesday, November 22, 2005
hmm, nice day today.. had a colddddddd day.. yoo.. had dinner with Albert and Jason at Galileo...Nice food.. Haha.. Take care pple.. tiring day...
::I LoVe U...:: -Jason&Nadiah- 310103
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` Monday, November 21, 2005
Hmm, feeling kinda sick today.. feverish and cold.. Lesson seems extra long.. Frm 9 to 4.. By right, no break but the teacher allow lunch from 1 to 2. Unfortunately, i din go for lunch.. bcoz dun feel like eating.. feeling more like vomitting.. But nonetheless, hunger strikes me more.. Endurance is the word to conquer the hunger in me.. Haha.. I just wanna complete my work asap and go hm and rest.. Just feeling so redundant in sch bcoz it's so boring.. Damn.. I din game today bcoz i'm too tired.. Hmm, wish to dotA but hmm, been a busy day so no gaming.. Haha.. Networking lesson was fine.. manage to absorb.. OOP was fine either.. Manage to absorb too.. Hmm, But hunger is now ovewhelming me.. hee..hee... Dun tell Jason, later he scold me again.. haha.. he will strt his nagging and stuff.. haha.. Ok ok.. just for now... all this.. haha.. bcoz i need to do my assignment liao.. Tata.. take care...
Hungry me,
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` Sunday, November 20, 2005
It's a total fun time hanging out at esplanade. Haha..Fun time taking funny photo with weird pose.. Hmm.. Nice time with you, baby.. Hmm, Mango.. is swt.. bread is soft... green tea is tasty.. Hmm, everything seems so wonderful today... Hee..
Esplanade now preview sumthing on spore. Visit esplanade for more info.. It's a nice piece of art.. Big slippers, trishaw.. and umbrella.. Nice nice.. very colorful.. hee.. you will sure enjoy...
My laopo..
Thanks alot.. for being there for me when i need sumone.. I will b there if you need me too.. I love you..
Wah, i can't wait to see Hui and KL's half.. hahahahahahaha... So excited to judge..
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` Friday, November 18, 2005
Hmm, oo.. everyone does powerpoint but my group does the ancient way.. TRANSPARENCY.. haha.. Oh my, total embarrasment.. haha.. Hmm, i'm so hungry.. Yeah.. finishing lesson soon.. haha.. short lesson today.. Hmm.. tomorrow is escape day.. yippie.. hopefully, it doesn't rain.. haha.. Den i can enjoy.. So good.. so Fun... More photo mania for us again.. Yeah.. Photo photo.. click click click.. haha... JIng me Hui J.. enjoy pple..
Cheers,
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` Thursday, November 17, 2005
Hmm, being frenz with you again.. Seems so much better den in relationship with you.. Hmm.. So So good.. haha.. But there is sum odd - feeling in the atmosphere.. haha.. But nvm.. life still goes on.. thanks..
Sorrie.. Take care..
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` Wednesday, November 16, 2005
What's in me?
Confusion.. I duno what decision to make.
Any of the decision made brings nothing to me but pain..
I got no choice but to make a choice.
Choice 1 - Pain for now, struggling to lead a normal life but clearer future..
Choice 2 - Enjoy for now, having pain in between times, but future is unknown to me..
Currently, I'm leading a life like choice 1.. Having horrible pain in me, struggling to control my emotions,
trying to make my mind free from thinking, making life miserable yet seeing a clearer future of mine.
I'm in so much agony yet no one can share my sorrows. Even, in my slp, i couldn't find peace in myself.
Maybe the reality is so cruel to me. I'm trying to lead the life in search for my TRUE joy and laughter but
it's still far beyond my reach. For example, I'm currently in stage 2-3 where my aim is like stage 50. I really
couldn't find any support to lift me to a high stage but to depend on myself to level up. The pain I'm enduring
is so excruciating, just like my heart is being peirced through by a sharp razor dagger..
Deceit.. The only one who is true to me and will nv turn its back on me i guess is my mother.. Or even maybe
It's my cats.. When i need help, the person who always say he/she will be there willl always seems so away
from me. I just duno y.. maybe theaven is making a joke out of me.. This always happens.. I wish to find my
happiness.. my smile, my laughter, the old me.. I seems to lose them all.. I duno even noe if i'm reli happy with
my current me.. I dun seems to be able to understand myself anymore. I noe what is to do and what is not to do
but just why.. why can't i listen to the rational me? Why does my heart always win over my mind? Sometimes,
i wonder if i can really be firm in my decision which my mind has made, i won't suffer so much pain, agony and
sadness in me. It's my heart that is always making the wrong decision yet the person who suffered most is me and
my heart. Maybe, If i can be more cruel and heartless, my life will be so much happier unlike now.. Suffering in silence
yet if anyone noes, they wun pity me yet ridicule me for my stupidity. Ha.. Yes, I'm stupid, i'm silly or whatever
you pple can say about me, but if you are in my state, i bet you wun be laughing at all. Love bring pains.. Loads of pain.
Sinking real deep in love till letting go is worse than taking away my life. When can i reli learn to love myself and stop
hurting myself. Memories is always that beautiful. why cant our life live in the world of memories? why is reality always so
different from my version of it? When can i ever find peace in me? Who can help me?
I'm trying to avoid choice 2 because choice 1 will keep on repeating itself.. I want to cry, my heart told me so.. but why ain't
i crying den. why am i always holding back my tears? Well, even if i cry, I will never be able to lessen my pain because after
the tears is a pair of despise eyes on me. Tear, cry makes me look even worst in the person's eyes. A weakling.. Ha.. it
seems so funny, cry give pple sense of pity yet my cry give pple sense of despise. Cry is always wrong.. Everything i do is wrong.
I nv able to make the right choice before. I'm such a loser. a pathetic fool. But, who cares? who cares about how the hell will i feel?
No one but just me, myself and I.
P.S. Please dun try to console me or anything because.. I dun need your sympathy nor your care.
All i want now, is a be able to find peace in me and forget about my unwanted feelings..
Pardon my words but please dun bother to tag me anything because it doesn't help but to bring me
more painss..
Date: 16 Nov 2005
Time: 17:46 h
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` Friday, November 11, 2005
To Lenda..
Lenda baby, i din mean to make you wear the band. i bet you did shallow abit of the liquid in the glowing band.. oops.. i reli dun mean it.. i hope you are okay.. But i duno if it is poisonous.. Lenda, you seems a bit weak today.. God, pls bless lenda and grant her good health. Lenda, you will be okay.. If anything goes wrong, i will feel bad inside.. YOu muz take care.. I love you always.. You are my precious cat.. baby..
Regrets -.-,
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` Friday, November 11, 2005
Humps.. WorkLoad is increasing.. Bleah.. I was like o.O when i know test and assessment seems never ending.. Just finish a CA assessment for NF.. Ooo.. It weighs 7.5% of my module.. Hmm, seems alot.. Mdm Thai(she looks like Steven Chou..haha always in chongsam) She issued us our semester project liao.. Argh.. A good website design on " DOLL COLLECTION".. Humps. stressing us early in the semester.. Hmm, trying to balance my studies and personal life.. School is so much more less life in it.. BIS is confusing for me. Dun reli quite understand BIS.. But no help available. Everyone seems to have problem with that module.. But the BIS teacher, he's funny.. Guess wat, he has the same name as my dad. BIS teacher name is Ismail Ahmed Fulu.
Oo.. My OOP teacher is an angmoh.. He's young but he seems to pick on me alot.. bleah..-.- His name is unique.. Devilly Oran Zane is his name and it means white handsome blackman.. i guess so.. i dunno.. He's an irish.. Oo.. He's completing his Master in gaming soon.. bleah.. game freak..-.-.. Next week, more stress... argh... More test... More presentation..Damn.. Lucky me, tmr is break for me.. weekends .. yea..
So far, what is stressing me is my family.. Jason, i bet you noe it best.. Well, let's not talk about it.. Tmr i got a badminton game with Kira Yamato.. -.- ar.. It's yong Kang la.. He claimed to be Kira.. Humps..-.- wanna trach me.. lolz.. When i was playing badminton, you oni learning how to slap.. using your hands.. haha.. Me and Shinn will trach Kira and gang.. Bleah..o.O wat an arrogance in me.. On Sun, Me jing and hui + Jason will visit Miss Siti.. Finally, Miss Siti.. i miss you.. time to bully you again.. Thanks for your guidance.. haha.. Miss you loads.. Haha.. Next sat is escape day.. yippie.. Oni me, Jason, Hui and Jing.. No more.. Alert!! No intruders.. haha.. Cantwait to go crazy-ing with ms pink and ms busy.. @ESCAPE THEME PARK... argh... arhhhhhhhhh.. the next following monday, i no voice.. my future prediction.. haha
Cheers,
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` Wednesday, November 09, 2005
Hmm, I feel a little disappointed in this friendship of ours.. A little too fragile.. It cant withstand problems.. I do cherish our friendship alot.. seriously, i do..
I remember frm the we play a game in CATS class.. only den i noticed you... I dun mean i din notice you but you gave me an air of proudness til i reli see you that day. Hmm, Frm msn to our first lunch at Canteen 1.. Chat for quite sumtime about the philosblah of love. It was just like yesterday i found you, But today when i woke up, i lost you. I dunno what made the coldness among us.. Maybe it was Jason.. or it wasnt or wat ever your reason is, i just dun wish to see my frenship goes down the drain.. It was all meant to be a test initially but since you noe it, you ignored me. I msg you on msn, no reply.. sms you.. no reply either.. well i reli duno wat is with you.. But.. it was all a lie.. A close fren to nothing now.. That is a real big lost for me.. i nv lose a fren b4 but i noe that the feeling i had now is very confusing.. and i feel abit lost.. i reli dunno wat i can do to salvage our frenship but.. pls show me sum indication to cnue or give up.. take care.. you are the best buddy i had.. see ya arnd
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` Wednesday, November 09, 2005
Stress is part of me.. Workload is getting heavier.. School is a battle place.. Relationship is a hassle.. Family is invisible.. Friends are missing.. Study is slacking.. Life is meaningless.. Smile has disappeared.. And I seemed lost..
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` Monday, November 07, 2005
Wooo~ The Nissan showcase are so cool... The atmosphere is so EVIL.. The colour of black for all cars.. Woo.. haha.. Very nice..
The 2-sitters, Nissan 350Z.. Is awfully cool. The interior is mainly metalic.. The accelerator, brake and everything is metalic.. quite cool.. However, the car is too small.. A better recommendation frm me for such 2-sitters car is mazda RX-8.
Nissan Cefiro is a very luxurious car. It's very spacious and i can consider it as a big car like BMW 5 or 7 series. The car is very confortable. A car worth paying for.
Nissan Latio is a normal car.. The upholstery is leather-made. A better recommendation i will give is Mazda 3 or 6. Mazda 3 is nice..
Mazda 3 sports Edition is very gd.. Well, to noe more about it, visit mazda website.
For hunch back cars, Nissan March is very suitable for ladies. It's has a nice look and interior..
Erm, I'm not promoting mazda.. nor nissan.. Just a pure opinion of mine.
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` Friday, November 04, 2005
Hmm, I have a friend who is giving up her hamsters for free.. including the cage.. She intend to get a dog instead.. She has no idea of how to deal with the hamsters so she intend to look for anyone who is interested in keeping hamster..
Any animal lovers who love hamster can adopt these adorable hamster for free.. Just call me on my hp or kindly leave a tag.. and email add.. so i can get back and you and make the necessary arrangement.. It's absolutely free..
We just hope that the hamster will b in gd conditoon with its new owner..
Pls tag me.. Thanks...
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` Thursday, November 03, 2005
Hmm...mm.. oops, i misunderstood my laopo.. aiy..i'm such a muddlehead..
Pple, the auction for my laopo is off.. she is a gd laopo.. she wish me happie new yr le.. but i..i... was blogging so din read msg.. haha..
To my cute Lao po,
Laopo.. sorie sorie.. (pulling ears)*o.O*
I din read your msg so i ot you are an ingrate.. forgot about me.. sobsob.. but
haha
yippie, my laopo still rmb me.. hmm, i muz go fanxing fanxing liao worz.. haha..
Bleah.. love my laopo loads..
Friends forever... miss her smiley face.. and tomato face.. haha..
Laopo, smmmmiiiiiiiiiillllllllllllleeeeeeeee.....
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` Thursday, November 03, 2005
Woo~ Finally, it's the end for me... to fast.. yippie... so gd.. But during the fasting,i ain't shedding any fats off me.. but adding more. argh..i'm fat... help me!!! haha... But who cares! I'm fine with being FAT!! i love my fats.. they are my warmth when i'm cold.. Haha.. That wasn't any lame excuse alrite..
Hmm.Mm.. hehe.. IT's New year le for mE... woo~ Selamat Hari Raya to Me.. haha.. Just wishing myself la.. gees... haha... Today, going visit in late afternoon.. with Jason.. woo~ Meet-my-relative session.. haha.. nerve-wrecking ba ah j? haha..
HmM.. Hey hey, My laopo nv wish me.. hmm, bad bad bad laopo.. Dun wan her liao.. I'm auctioning miss Tay Oon Chin.. any bidders? Starting bid is S$1,000. Strt bidding in my tagboard.. haha..
NOTE!!!!
Auction: Ms TAY OON CHIN
Bid per person up : S$500
Starting price: S$1,000
Bidding strts now...
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