` Wednesday, January 25, 2006
i'm totally trashed.
I hate myself.
Who can i rely on?
Just myself?
I can rely just on my own without a supporting voice to tell me
if i shld go on or stop here.
Haiz....
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` Wednesday, January 25, 2006
Stress lies beneath her breath.
Screams overwhelmed her head.
Argh!!
.....
She is going crazy..
damn crazy..
not over him..
but over school..
She is crazily in pain..
HEADACHE!!!
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` Tuesday, January 24, 2006
Bliss found just today.
I found the bliss i have lost in me for a long time
just today at 12.04am.
Hmm, i just feel that my man is back..
the real man i want out of him.
i just feel so good. so so good.
thanks j.
Hmm, he's the man.. the hero in my life.
The rule with great leadership.
Woo~ just strt to notice him.
Miss his forte for all this while.
Blinded by sadness that overwhelmed me.
I'm sorry is the way to forget all our history.
Please pardon my attitude for all i do,
It's just for you.
love, Nadiah
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` Monday, January 23, 2006
Assignments are all over me..
hmm, been busy with loads of assigments as school for this year is coming to a closure..
Woo~ exam is just early next month..February.. There goes my valentine day.. Oops..
just 3 more weeks to sloggg my guts out all all my assignments.. Hmm, there is OOP assignment, UID assignment, IAC assignment and Lastly, COMT kit assignment...
Oh gosh.. damn hell of alot..
But no choice..
Struggle my way thru..
Strt earli...
Hahaha... An advive..
Apple reali make my day..
=)
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` Sunday, January 22, 2006
Disappointment
i dunno wat to say.
i just can say i'm disappointed.
I'm utterly disappointed.
very very disappointed.
There is no more hope anymore for me.
I just lost all of them.
Not a single bit of hope left in me.
After so much persuasion,
he nv fail to drop my esteem down the drain.
I reli dunno wat to do now.
just a pure mind of nothing left in it.
crying and arguing leads to no where.
Maybe in me now is nothing.
I'm just a pretty empty shell on the outside.
Hahahahahaha..
a laughter out of fake strong act i put up.
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` Sunday, January 22, 2006
Equations
1. bad*mood = bad.day
2. bad*mood + smile = bad.day -1/2 bad.day + average.day
3. bad*mood + smile + laughter = bad.day - 1/2 bad.day + good.day
So my day today is 2.
Hmm, just sum misunderstanding and losing made the day quite bad.
Likewise sum unnecessary arguments.
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` Saturday, January 21, 2006
Two warning letters?!!
Hmm, wat have become of her?!! Just dun understand her sumtimes..
In the past, all she wan is to enter poly..
Now she has achieved her wish yet she is gambling her chance away.
Just dun understand her.
Haiz, maybe.. life is different for her now.
cruel reality struck her hard..
Hmm, feeling of frustration runs deep in her.
Still water running deep.
All she can say now!!
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` Thursday, January 19, 2006
Feeling abit numbed and expressionless...
I dunno wat to say about my relationship, family, life and school..
Practically, everything is very intense for me now..
I just feel so so so.. stress and confused..
I aso dunno wat else to help myself..
I dun have any support frm anyone.. so i feel rather lost at times.
I do have a family but i seldom can feel at home eventhough i'm at home.
I do have a boyfriend but i dun feel the support i have frm him altoe he is just by me.
I have friends but practically all my frenz are busy with sch and life.
I have myself but myself is now so lost and confused so myself cannot think properly.
Hmm, so how?
I just think i will smile my way thru..
and bring light to my darkest hours.
I blie in GOD. so he will help me breeze thru this tides..
Thanks god..
P.S i wun give up on him bcoz everyone has their busiest time.
I will support him as well as myself during this period of time bcoz he need me support.
I will have to be strong bcoz everyone need me..
Dear, i love you.
Mum, Dad i still love you.
My family, i will support u.
My frenz, i will wait for you.
Thanks Mellissa for being there for me..
=).. mwah3
My life, i will have to make you suffer for a while.
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` Wednesday, January 18, 2006
I damn farking angry when i see this video..
I just dun understand y this pple are so cruel..
These animals are so so poor thing.. Haiz..
Please be wise on purchasing item next time..
Help save these animals.
Argh,, fark those pple..
Cruel video..
http://192.192.241.98/fur.wmv
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` Thursday, January 12, 2006
NYP.. Common test end for him.
She was happy.
Finally,
His paper ended
for good.
Now, she and him has
all
the
time in the
world...
she feel happy
as she can finally
get to company her
guy.
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` Monday, January 09, 2006
.:Happiness.lies.in.your.hand:.
Thanks to Mellissa virus.. Thank u so much
I noe wat to do.. and how to go about doing...
Hmm, feeling reli happy now.. Yahooooooo~
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` Saturday, January 07, 2006
.:*a.sense.of.relief*:.
Hmm, after penning down all i have to say to him,
i feel that everything that i have hid in me is all
poured out at one time. Nv feel so relieved before.
Hmm, Life is meant to be happy, it all depends on
myself to make life happy or sad. I chose to lead life
miserable so my life before was reli of misry, pain
sorrow, hurt, everything u name. Why life is such
a painful thing? Haiz...
Letting go is a real hard thing but learning to let go is
a process of learning. Haa.. i'm learning lor.. hee..
Give me sum time.. I will brace up...
Msg is left for him there. our blog. Read it. U will noe.
Take care. I love him.
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` Friday, January 06, 2006
Meaning.of.my.life
no.one.noes.this.better.than.me.myself.and.i.
my.life.is.worthless.haa.haa.
dun.console.me.bcoz.u.dunno.wat.i.am.going.thru.
just.read.and.listen.bcoz.i.need.sumone.to.listen.to.my.agony.
Hmm.i.dun.think.i.will.share.with.you.my.problems.but.just.need.to.rant.
no.matter.wat.i.will.be.brave.and.patient.in.handling.my.affairs.
i.blie.this.is.a.test.from.all.mighty.above.
i.noe.life.in.future.will.be.better.
trust.him.like.i.do.
I.still.love.him.
i.noe.
i.still.need.him.
i.noe.
but.i.need.to.find.him.back.
b4.i.lose.him.totally.
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` Friday, January 06, 2006
Hmm, OOP.. manageable..
Haha.. yeah.. oop is my most confidence paper.. haha.. yea.. Nf my worst.. Haiz.. but finally exam over yea.. hahaha... happy happy.. play time everyone..
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` Wednesday, January 04, 2006
CoMMoN TesT PeRioD...
Hmm, this common test is so simple for for... so simple bcoz probability is wat i use in my strategy... Haha.. Merely guessingand tikam-tikam lor.. Haha.. din relly study much.. play too much le.. haiz..
X!capade...
Wah, i'm helping out in X!capade on 7th Jan 06 at Ngee Ann City, Orchard.. From 11-8... Come join in the fun... Got Daphne Khoo, Sylvester Sim so come join in..
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` Tuesday, January 03, 2006
Stressssss~....
Hmm... Stress is part of life.. i noe.. but i cant help but to express my stress moment.. Oh my god.. nf.. sux big time.. so much to memorize.. damn subject.. sianz..
Hmm, i havent finish studying yet.. damn.. Haizx.. but shant bother myself about spilt milk.. dun care la.. if fail den work harder for my final lor.. the thinking i can bear in mind now.. Haiz.. sianz.. Dear, thanks for your encouragement.. i will try to score but the confidence level isnt that high.. I'm sorry to let you down.. i noe you have high expectation of me but i'm not cut out for IT.. seriously, i dun like to study.. but i got to pursue my diploma bcoz of the responsibility.. Nonetheless, i assure you that i will graduate for sure with my DIPLOMA.. Hmm.. now i'm trying to make up to my studies for all the time lost during house moving earlier on.. I will work harder.. forgo my slp for a few more hrs.. Anyway, I'm doing this for myself and YOU!! Dear.. Thanks!!!
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