[H]er [L]ife; s.m.i.l.e

UPDATE TIME!!

2008-01-08T13:52:00.000+08:00

The last semester of sch seems to be a struggling semester for me. I began to lose enthusiasm in my studies, the motivation to do my work is reducing greatly.

Hai, i have been skipping classes so much than my previous semesters. And i began to grew lazy having to come to class. this truly suckss.. i wun wan to repeat my sem but it seems like my own attitude is failing me.

What can i do? Who can render a helping hand to pull me out of darkness and bring me back my enthusiasm in my studies? Only me battling against the darker side, a truly defeating battle for me. I wonder, ponder, think, analyze but i couldnt figure things out. I will try to brush up but hoping for a lending help will definitely boost my morale to win this battle more.

Hmm assignment week!! work work work.. hai.. sian.. =(

1st day of school

2007-10-16T13:00:00.001+08:00

I reached school 20 minutes early and found no one in the room except for MR KONG, the lecturer.

He say "Hi" so do i. We smiled and i sat on the second row. Set up my computer and strt friendstering since i have nothing much to do. Students strts to flow in and ta-dah, i saw bel and ty. My kaki.. yea.. den saw the name list.. woot!! so many of my kaki in the same class. excitement overwhelmed us that makes us talk non-stop.. Came to know that yesterday lesson was about installing the app to your comp and doing nth.. relieved that nth was taught and i din miss anything much. (;

My first lesson is DOA. Din nth but installing the new office 2007. WTF need to buy so many books and all is like 2x^ zz.. DOA, SCM, freaking IS mods and what else.. gosh!1 guess going to spend alot but this isnt the issue. the issue is the books are freaking thick, as thick as a dictionary.. imaging me having to bring laptop and a freaking dictionary-like textbook arnd.. oh great.. just kill me.. ooo.. thinking in another prespective, it aids me in losing weight because i'm carrying weight consistently for the next 6mths.. wahahahaha

Oops, cherie caught me blogging so she DEMAND me to mention her in my blog entry.. Ta-dah.. CHERIE CHERIE bombom.. i aso caught her.. she came, armed herself with vcd/dvd, ipod, earpiece and guess what.. it's movie mania on her cozy corner.. (;

MY LAST DAY@GRIDNODE

2007-08-03T10:29:00.000+08:00

Finally, the moment arrived.. YEA!!! It's my last day @ GridNode. Woosh..

Had my viva presentation ytd w/o any hiccups.. The presentation was pretty smooth. Cleared all my school work, cleared all my work work, clear all my burden and stress.. I'm FREEE.. I see the glimpse of FREEDOM emerging out of the darkness bits by bits and by 6pm today, i'll see a full sky of bright rays of FREEDOM.

How do i define FREEDOM?!
The definition of FREEDOM in x n a's dictionary is the release of x n a from immerse stress and workload to the world of peace and relax..

Wooshh.. counting down from 10.40am.
Lunch will be held at Jackson Claypot, setting off at 12.15pm. Hope the lunch will be a super long lunch so that i can smell the breeze of freedom approaching near.

counting down: 11am 12pm 1pm 2pm 3pm 4pm 5pm 6pm - 12pm to 2pm = hmm, guess what i couldn't even count my hours right.. but all i noe, 6pm is the time i am waiting forward to.. YEA!!!

Mood meter is almost bursting, bursting with happiness. Simply couldn't contain my excitement any further. I might explode!!! EXPLODED!!! YEAHHHHH!!! *clap hands*

2007-07-25T16:37:00.000+08:00

********CALLING ALL IP STUDENTS********

PLEASE SWITCH YOUR FRIENDLY FIRE MODE ON!!
Take a look at this post below. I caught 1 IHP student mocking fun at all IP students. I even captured screenshot as evidence to prove this IHP BAD GUY guilty of his words.. JULIUS, *hiak hiak* YOU ARE DEADMEAT!!!

THE EVIDENCE:

On behalf of all IP students, I demand public apology. The apology should first and foremost compliment me, NADIAH. UNDERSTAND LUCY!!
I will await your apology to be public-ated. (;

2007-07-20T10:10:00.000+08:00

Hello!!!!
I'm here to share a story that i find interesting. I hope you will share the sentiment as me. Well cheers to those who agrees with me and perish from the surface of earth for those who doesn't. hees.

THE KINGDOM OF AHGUA AND WEIRDOS

For a flying start of this story, i shall share with you some interesting characters. Look out for Gui the SHUAI ah gua, the 7 little 38s and the cute dubbling Danish and the heavenly pretty princess, Na and lastly the wrapped up mummy, J.

Kingdom of AHGUA and WEIRDOS was initially known as Kingdom of Happy Na but will the attempts to take over the kingdom by the ahgua and weirdos be successful?! They took advantage of her kindness, naiveness and unselfishness in sharing her kingdom's wealth and peace with them. This gave them the opportunity to seize the kingdom without having to engage into a battle.

The 7 warriors of Kingdom of Happy Na,

The kingdom was entangled with fast-pace spreading fire rumors about the 7 female warriors who are always caught gossiping about the military affairs or complaining about their husbands' flaws.

Loyal left advisor (Kneeling on 1 knee): Your highness! your loyal subject has words of honesty to let you know. Please give your loyal subject a chance to convince you that the rumors are true.
Princess Na: Please raise. Spare the formality my loyal subject. I never doubt your words before so do speak your heartfelt words my loyal subject.
Loyal left advisor: Your highness! The rumor is spreading fast like wild fire about your beloved 7 warriors are proven true. They failed to fulfil their duty and the assistant general has been doing their duty for 7 years. Your highness! please probe this matter and address the matter with an appropriate solution.
Princess Na: NO!! *shake head shake* Accusation should not be happening in this peaceful kingdom. My loyal subject, you had disappoint me utterly.
Loyal left advisor: Your highness! Allow me to prove you this accusation is to be true. I have captured thier gossiping session with my well hidden 3.2 mega-pixel camera

Princess Na has left with no choice but to force the 7 warriors to step down from their posts and promote the assistant general thus rewarding the adviser with hefty sum of golds.

The advisor was GUI the SHUAI ah gua. This is one of his motive to win the trust of the Princess as well as to gain respect for his bravery to oppose the 7 warriors.

GUI the SHUAI ah gua,

The guardian angel of Princess Na was the cute dubbling Danish. However, he was also subdued by the monstrous GUI. Every year, Kingdom of Happy Na will organise a SMILEY campaign to encourage smiles in the kingdom. This year, the featured 2 person is DANISH AND GUI. Please view poster below:

******************THE POSTER OF THE YEAR******************
SMILE MORE FOR BETTER LOOKS

QUOTE OF THE DAY: Having a smile brightens up everyone day.
Smile to win attractive prizes. Do check our the website now.
xxx.kingdomNa.lala\smile_to_win.htm

Even cute dabbling Danish is subdued by GUI. Who could be the saviour of this Kingdom?! GUI planning the his success to overthrow Princess Na. He hatched a plan to dispense his evil aura to Princess Na. He bought her for a walk down the Lala Garden, dispensing his evil aura, slowly immersing into her body. Her secret guardian angel took a snapshot of him but is was to misty that the snapshot focus more on the evil aura surrounding her.
The evil aura:

The supposed "saviour" appears!!! Ta-dah!!! Wrap himself up to protect his identity. He only wish to be the secret guardian angel of Princess Na. Woosh!!

A tough battle they fought lasted for months and the Princess Na was in hibenation because of the evil aura. Who won the battle?! Who was defeated?

Strings of QN MARKS lies within my reader's head!! wahaha..

Finally, the winner emerged!! and guess who won the battle!! It was Princess Na's REAL secret guardian. YUMI the CAT!!! After the long battle, she rested in her own comfort.

THE END

I can't wait til 3rd August 2007

2007-07-17T13:29:00.001+08:00

Woot!! Another 13 more days to freedom from attachment. GREAT!!

After which i will be in search of job again. working part time somewhere else. Wasnt all for money, just dun wanna rot at home doing nothing fruitful. Hmm..mm i havent tot of what i would like to try out now. I tried admin jobs, operator job. I wish to go into food industry but my baby discourage so!

Well heed his advice. =) I would probably go back to UOB Credit Card Center to do some marketing work. Learning experience in handling events. =) Heard that my department has shifted to TPY HUB. great!! Nearer to my place. wooshh..

Anyway, went back to school on mon. Oh gosh.. i go gaga over my frens.. saw heaps of frens back in school. Let me name some.. HMM..

Alex the cutie handsome, Cherie and Jac my beloved 38 khakis, Izwan and the fa-fu guy, Simon the smelly rotten bandit, Amy the giant and vivian the ICT "xiao hua". Lionel the hunkie gentleman, mark the cool guy, Devilly Oran Zane the angmoh cutie pie, Lai Shao Bin the flirtish young lect, Chen Jen Tock the sotong young at heart, old at age lect, Lee Chin Seng the botak to be mentor, my T06 juniors, Tchin the secondary sch old bully, Adeline the cold turkey, Wee keng the small eyes and i think that is all about it. Couldnt think of anyone more alr..

=))
p.s I'm missing him badly. <3s

2007-06-28T12:39:00.000+08:00

I must blog about this experience i had on bus 31 because if u are taking bus 31, u might have chances to face this bus captain so dun be surprised or think otherwise. He is not crazy, He is plain POLITE and FRIENDLY.

Do nominate him as one of your "star" bus captain alright?!!

Let me introduce to you his 口头禅

谢谢大家
放工了
轻松了
回家休息
不要乱跑
明天会更好
谢谢。

Isn't he real cute and polite?!! Do nominate him. But i wonder if he create this 口头禅 himself?!! He makes real great effort to please u passengers so do appreciate it.

2007-06-27T17:46:00.000+08:00

fiona rated my blog NC16.
She is still waiting for mature contents to be uploaded before she grade my blog M18

For R21 blog, please view www.atemptressinme.blogspot.com because mine will nv be a R21 blog.

thanks.

2007-06-27T15:27:00.000+08:00

WTF.. Initially, i tio fucking dragged into some Intel project standard package thingy. I was only told to do Excel Template Interface Design only..

SBS and now that fucking KS ask me to learn how to put in simple programming codes to the action buttons. He only noe how to KJW..
He said "Aiya the codings all very simple one.. Just some simple mathematical terms like qty * amount = subtotal. no scientific calculation at all what.." He also said "Aiya u can one la. u add the formula in den over time we can just change the formula to fit other country. Not difficult." And his LJ last words is "Consult Soon Shiong

NBCB, he talk talk talk.. SBS Up til now, still haven't standardize the damn 3A4 template. How can we start on our template?!! The fucking dateline is so tight, he still so fussy about the mandatory fields. MCB, he fucking no meaning. Ask me to do some many things as if i got all the time in the world.

Arghhhh.. so simple he fucking dunno how to do himself meh.. CB, stupid buckgay.. hahahaha.. =))

finish scolding le.. sb shuang!!!

2007-06-27T09:59:00.000+08:00

[G]ym [F]renzy

CALLING OUT ALL GYM ADDICTS AND GYM ADDICTS WANNA_BE!!!

Want to be like her?! Take up gyming now!! Don't wait!!

Gym-ing is much easier compared to those strenuous exercises like jogging, swimming.

Gym is a sport that allow focus to be set on. You can choose to focus on building up your back muscles, your chest muscles. Anyway u like!! This is the advantage. Toning up your body now at BISHAN SPORT COUNCIL OR YIO CHU KANG SPORT COUNCIL!!

Admission fee of S$2.50 will be charged.. Please be properly geared and a hand towel is needed for entrance else you can choose to purchase them at the counter.

Promoting ends here.

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wahahahahaha.. gosh.. i sounded so kuku.. promoting gym!! wth.. i got nth better else to blog la.. dun have any happenings to update.. so do bo liao stuff.. no happy can dun read.. wee~ Some additional treatsss.. for my loyal fan.. mellissa.. =)

2007-06-26T10:07:00.000+08:00

INCREASING WORKLOAD WON'T PUT [S]upergirl DOWN!!!

•x[N]a™• ナディア ♥ PHUAH GUI WEN *bite u* says:
hai
•x[N]a™• ナディア ♥ PHUAH GUI WEN *bite u* says:
i think gd period is over
•x[N]a™• ナディア ♥ PHUAH GUI WEN *bite u* says:
i have alot of things to do le..
•x[N]a™• ナディア ♥ PHUAH GUI WEN *bite u* says:
PS excel templates
•x[N]a™• ナディア ♥ PHUAH GUI WEN *bite u* says:
PD program testing
•x[N]a™• ナディア ♥ PHUAH GUI WEN *bite u* says:
S&M brochure printing, consolidate feedback, address feedback issue. e-learning, proposal
•x[N]a™• ナディア ♥ PHUAH GUI WEN *bite u* says:
NP SCHOOL REPORT

WOOT! My dept is everywhere.. hahaha Nadiah 满天下.. [S]upergirl... fly fly fly.. =) zoommm...

2007-06-25T17:11:00.000+08:00

He say it BEST..

Dear Nadiah,
I love you.
You have a nice smile.
You make me feel blessed.
You should sleep more.
Someday I will er... learn cycling to cycle with you...?.
You + me = blissful times.
If I saw you now I'd hug you.
I want to hug and kiss you.
I would build a brick house just for you.
If I could sing you any song it would be
wei yi by me myself =D.
We could dance under the stars.
Love,
boss
P.S. you are my supergirl, my apple sushi.

2007-06-23T17:51:00.000+08:00

a b.l.u.n.d.e.r we made lead to hell loads of lies.. bad sinful deed!!! HAIZ.. I HATE TO LIE.. but this is what we call WHITE LIE.

If wast for this white lie, we may cause destruction to another person or worst, the devil in the other person to resurfaced. Well, so white lies helped!!

Learn to speak some white lies to get your way thru.. =))

so everyone, please say "you are pretty!!" to me.. greatly appreciated..

2007-06-21T12:40:00.000+08:00

She has a night out with her old peeps at PP[Parkway Parade]. Our GUIDES's NIGHTOUT, DOVE UNITED!!!

She was late, hmm as usual. Her peeps were starving. Ooh, she forget to introduce her peeps to the readers. Well her peeps were Tendy and Sarah. Gosh, she got toot in her nehneh.. Great!! Damn it Tendy..

Sarahhhh & Tendyyyy

Starving girls slogged their guts down the stream, up the hill and finally TA-DAH they reached their destination, FISH & Co. Hmm actually it's just next to Starbuck, the place they embarked from.
They settled down after along struggled walk. Hmm.. well.. the waiter is cute. He is so KUKU~ Some treat for you.. Yummy.. But it's relatively cold. SUCKS!!

FOOODDDD!!!

We ordered our food, Seafood Platter as well as New York Fish and Chips. For drinks, i went with some mango-ish cocktail with tequila mixed. Oh gosh i had extra dosage of tequila added to my mango-ish drink. S shot glass per mango-ish cocktail and i had 2 of that drink. I had 3 original shot glass of tequila and helped Tendy with 1/2 a shot glass. In total, woot! 5 1/2 shot glass and guess I'm still standing. My 1st tequila experience.
Oh Ten shared her LOVE experiences with us. Ooh.. Guide failed to correct her. X). Yea she find the waitress serving us hot. Guess a "unique" taste she had there. I cant see the reason why would i want to call that waitress "HOT"!! Gosh.. =)

Nice Time out!! MOS next time girlsss X)

Crazy US!!

2007-06-20T13:31:00.000+08:00

We hate KS! He is a big time SPOILER!!

everyone sing along..

WE HATE KS..
WE HATE KS..
HE HAS SMALL HEAD BUT HE HAS BLACK HEART..
HE SE-PA-RA-TED US, WE WILL KICK HIS ASS..

EVERYONE SING ALONG..

WE HATE KS..
WE HATE KS..

YEA!!!

what a song!!

2007-06-19T12:56:00.000+08:00

"Give it 2 Me" by Timbaland really turns on the spirit to move with the groove. The beat of the song makes the muscle of your body react with the song. It seemed almost automatic turning on the swayness of your body as well as the movement of your head to flow in with the song when u had your earpieces into your ears fully.

Perhaps another song i would recommend is "Get It Poppin" by Fat Joe. The song has nice momentum for a slow sway at certain phrases of the song. This song is not as hectic as the song above because this song is relatively a slow sway, more to R&B groove.

For some love heavy metal, try catching "Maria" by Hmm some korean singer. The drumming sensation is awesome. Perhaps this song has more focus on the drumming. But the guitarist is good as well. Love his effect added to the song.

Oh dear, I just love swaying along with the song. Probably those at the bus stop and those on the bus saw me swaying!! =)

2007-06-18T11:45:00.000+08:00

Hmm a picture i took after i woke up from my lalaland. Well taken by Photographer Paul. tsk tsk.. Thank u!! Enjoy!!

When i smile a little =)

Hmm. gosh i have really grown up. I used to be a plain jane.. A real plain jane that doesn't hanker over image at any single bit but now, i do mind a little about how i look outside. Perhaps forgo the make up because i prefer natural look but i serious have grown up from a girl to a woman to be. Thks to everyone who play a part to my growing period. I love u all.

2007-06-18T11:39:00.000+08:00

l.o.v.e is complex. I'm in a big big love triangle now. Guys, please disperse from me. I dun need guys anymore to be arnd me. Thks. and for those who are going to woo me, please reconsider. I wun consider u at all because i alr had 2 to think about. THKSS in advance. =)

2007-06-15T12:31:00.001+08:00

The s.t.i.c.k.y.n.i.s.m in her is resurfaced. Oh dear, how can she contain them within her w/o letting them out. But she simply has no control over them anymore because her heart gave way. =)

2007-06-14T12:02:00.000+08:00

She need some rest badly. y.a.w.n o.O
She hasn't been slping well recently.

On Sunday to Monday, she was on the phone with him the whole night till she was so tired that she fall ill den went to see a doc for MC for her absence from work.

On Monday to Tuesday, she waiting for him to reply or call her the whole night. She send numerous SMS and call to him but he refused to answer her. Painstakingly, she waited the whole night for him but he never reply her though.

On Tuesday to Wendesday, she got herself drunk as claimed by everyone. Reached home pretty late arnd 2-3. She slpt til 5+am and gave him a call. He was on the way home.

On Wednesday to Thursday, she talk to boss the whole night til 5am and poof~ she has gone to lala land.

So from Sunday til Wednesday, wahaha.. mathematics time!!
1 day = 24 hrs
so 4 days = 24 X 4
= 96

Total slping hours she has = 3 + 3
= 6

So fraction of slping = 6/96
= 1/16 hrs

Percentage = 1/16 X 100%
= 6.25%

Woot!!!! she is a pro tonner.. love her bitz bitz <3

2007-06-13T16:24:00.000+08:00

I can feel that I wasn't that important to him anymore since last nitz incident.
He used to choose me over game/friends but today, he choose to dotA than to talk to me on MSN. Hmm..mm guess i really threw it all. Even last nitz, he din even call me about the progress, to check if I'm home. Just leaving me in Jason's responsibility to get me safe home.

Well, my fault. no one to blame. =) brave it on, Nadiah! seek happiness in something else beside relationship or love.

2007-06-13T10:38:00.000+08:00

Under the influence of alcohol and medication, she couldn't control her stability. But she is still clear about those happenings arnd her..

The 1st place she dozing off was on the couch in the living room. Boss ask Mel if she can rest in his room.

She mistook boss as some other guys, keep asking boss not to touch her and keep saying "I have a boyfriend!"

She keep insisting she can walk herself even though she cant walk straight on her own w/o falling down.

She ignore calls from her Mum and Jason.

She complaint about WORK and still WORK to both boss and Jason.

She vomited 3 times. Toilet once, along Mel's corridor and lastly under Jason's block.

She fell off the bed at least twice.

She slpt on a double queen size bed with blankets over her.

Boss came into the room numerous times.

All the fags went down together with boss sending her off to Jason. They said something like "brother brother" thingy. Couldn't make out what they actually say because too much interaction. Her brain was slow.. =)

She reached home and saw her brother, mother was waiting at the door. She noes her mum cried. But she cant do anything about it because she cant even stand up str on her own.

She create a commotion at home waking up her younger brother and dasao and nephew. Her mum and brother was already awake. She feel bad but at that point of time, she only wants to slp.

She changed into her slping wear in the kitchen. Her mum was asking everyone not to enter the kitchen. She was lazy to go to the toilet. Her mum ask her to shower, she keep pushing her mum away, wanted to do thing on her own. And she fell so she just sat there for 5 min.

She head to bed. She called boss to report her safety. In her semi-conscious mode, she heard her mum saying "" er.. she forget. All she remembered saying was "I'M NOT DRUNK!"

That was her experience for u. =) enjoy.. But 2 reminders for girls.
1. Don't get yourself drunk if you don't know who u are with can be trusted.
2. Taking medication with alcohol can be life threatening. Don't attempt doing that.. Overdosing may occur because medicine with alcohol reacts real fast..

2007-06-12T17:17:00.000+08:00

Dear stupid kuku gonggong prince,

love is not measurable by time but by depth.
Giving up is a painful process.

So do you really want to give up?!!
Love don't come easily.

Memories do stay, no doubt but love can fade. No feeling lingers in her already. Give u and her some chance to make the difference. Do not easily think of giving up because u cut her even deeper than merely just scolding her?! I bet she will be crying 1 whole night! I noe her well. Hai, your foolishness caused misery to her. Worth it?!!

Your sincerely,
pretty girl =)

2007-06-07T17:08:00.000+08:00

The person i do not like in office is Q.

She fucking no meaning. Don't come to work then keep calling up to ask Jingy find contacts, file.. WTF.. Want to work from home den still trouble others to clear her fucking backside.. Doing saikang job for her even she is not in the office. This is damn fucking no meaning.. Keep calling in, asking to do stupid stuffs. Even after asking for help, well there is simply no appreciation given e.g. thank you. It seems as if we are ought to do all these things..Obtained such high level of education but she din even passed her basic courtesy etiquette.
Perhaps up in her head, she has no fucking space for courtesy, she must have shove it up her ass.. Oh lucky it was up her ass, not her vagina else her daughter might not make it out through her vagina because it's stuck with her courtesy etiquette. If that is the case, her daughter is coming out from her ass that makes her daughter a shitty girl. Oh hope she dun learn to be like her mum.

Anyway, wishing her a smooth delivery =))

The second person that i really dont like is KS.

He is one fucking stick-to-the-mud idiot. Super duper rigid. Inflexible old basket. Fuck, he cant even discipline his kids well. His kids are like spoilt brats, making nuisance out of themselves. Well, he took me as a supergirl. I email him that I'm having a sorethroat so recording should wait till i recovered but he bending on getting it done. What does he want to prove? Prove to boss that the tutorial is good with voice. Boss alr give his opinion to just stick to the previous one but this damn fucking guy insisted on making a new one. He damn fucking want to show off leh.. Showing off using my work, claiming the work to be done under his instruction that is why things are done that well. FUCK!! It's my ability and perfectionism! all he do is to talk talk talk and fucking give instruction.

And worst, I emailed him that I am taking 2 days MC but he replied me 1 day with addition to more work given to be completed before I go on MC. WTF.. I'm the patient here.. Well i replied him, i will try but most prob, will cnue when i return to work.

Oh gosh, enough of scolding. makes me real evil.
Enjoy =)

2007-06-06T17:02:00.000+08:00

U.N.W.E.L.L

2007-06-06T13:02:00.001+08:00

vulgarism argument leads to no meaning. What was the output?!! still nothing..

2007-06-06T12:27:00.000+08:00

Simon, please stop tagging me if u are not happy about my posting. I don't need feedbacks from you. What you and pink did was too horrendous!! Forcing me?!! This will be the last warning i issuing to u. JUST LEAVE ME ALONE. Because of your stupidity, i don't think we are even friends now.. Same goes to PINK. Let her know.
I won't like u no matter what. And quit those meaningless betting u have with your friends.. U will never get me so just pay the money and stop bugging me.
Well going NS soon right, go and fuck those gays there. My challenge to u.. Are u GAME?!

Meaningless asshole.

2007-06-05T14:24:00.000+08:00

[T]reats for laugh!!

Pictures shows it all!! Some hidden dark ugly side of [h]er and [h]er clicks!! Woot! Do not attempt to steal the pictures. It's locked with IP tracking device so i know who steal my pictures. Well, i will jolly well block u from my blog. =))Peace out!!

Row 1:
From left to right: act cute... lying down... Twist...

Row 2:
From left to right: reflection... Twist2... WHAT la...

Row 3:
From left to right: All in the bus...

Okie guys. time to switch!! Enough of seeing her pictures, well shall shows u some other pictures of her clicks!!

Row 4:
From left to right: Astro boy... Super emo...

Row 5:
From left to right: Eat eat eat... KPool@Cine...

Row 6:
From left to right: "Specky" Nephew... Housefly nephew...

Row 7:
From left to right: POSE PLS... CHIP-PY time...

Row 8:
From left to right: Yuki kiyu... Sun sun... PEACE!!!

Row 9:
From left to right: Let me out... Drop dead now...

RANDOM MIXTURE!!! Rojakk time..... woot!!

Row 10:
From left to right: Jasonnnnnnnnn Tayyyyyy Zhiiiii Weiiiiii =)

Row 11:
From left to right: Phuahhhhhhhh Guiiiiiii Wennnnnnnn =]

Row 12:
From left to right: Mixtureeeeee...

Closing [P]icturess.. Mixed Spam Time!

Row 13:
From left to right: Spam 01

Row 14:
From left to right: Spam 02

Row 15:
From left to right: Spam 03

Row 16:
From left to right: Spam 04

Row 17:
From left to right: Spam 05

That's all the [U]gly hidden pictures that i dare not upload to Friendster. =) Enjoy the [U]gly me.. wahaha.. =) I do have my [U]gly sides too.. Everyone does i suppose.. U, me, he, she, they, them, us and everyone.. UGLY sidessss...

2007-06-05T11:03:00.000+08:00

A week w/o all big bosses in the office.

SIMPLY AWESOME.. slacking real hard.. try to occupy my day with stumbles and friendster and msn.

That is slacker's job.. occupy junks to fill up their day, leaving on the dot to enjoy their after work.

2007-06-04T12:18:00.001+08:00

[A]pple's night out with him~~

Lunch or perhaps high tea at Swensens followed by
window shopping around Suntec and Marina Square. Places we covered for window shopping were Toy r us, XL John Little, CarreFour.

Stopped by the KOI garden to do some stupid bluetooth thingy. Was waiting and waiting and ta-dah, a bluetooth request received. Boss accepted and guess what we received!! SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS!! woot!! =.='''

Haha.. headed to our [S]ecret [H]ideout and chit chat, play and er.. shhh.. =)
Love my PSP session.. 2 words to describe it; [horrendously tenterhooking]. hehe..

Supper at MAC Den home swt home.. Woot!!

tiredddd~

2007-06-04T12:16:00.000+08:00

[S]upergirl [E]xperience..

two words to describe that;
[horrendously scary]

2007-05-30T11:19:00.000+08:00

E.X.P.L.I.C.I.T C.O.N.T.E.N.T

Please do not attempt to read this if you are 19 and below!!
Thank you for the co-operation..
Boss u cant read this.. hahahahaha..

Happy reading!!

1.
Kissing Is A Habit
Fuuckking Is A Game
Guys Get All The Pleasure
Girls Get All The Pain
10 Minutes Of Pleasure
9 Months Of Pain
3 Days In The Hospital
A Baby Without A Name
The Father Is A Bast4rd
The Mother Is A Wh0re
This Woulda Never Happened If The Rubber
Hadn't Tore!!

2.
You subtract the clothes
Add the bed
Divide the legs
And Pray to god
You don't multiply

3.
Roses are red
Lemons are sour
Open your legs and give me an hour

4.
sex is evil
sex is a sin
sins are forgiven
so stick it in

5.
Sex is good
Sex is fine
Doggy Style & 69
Just for fun
Or getting paid
Everyone likes getting laid

2007-05-29T11:53:00.000+08:00

Great Spore Sale [GSS]

hmm.. shopping time.. shop shop shop = broke broke broke.. Boss also going to be broke broke broke because he always pay for my food.. hmm..mm he broke = my turn to pay.. yesssss!!!

Boss tio scolding from his ah ma.. every time go dating.. Hmm.. who is that dated girl!! [*act blur] o.O

My da sao is my greatest enemy from my previous life. She keep picking on me.
I spend money also wrong. [She say i wasting $$]
I come back late also wrong. [She nags at me]
My hand phone bill too ex also wrong. [She say i talk too much on the phone]
I buy my things also wrong.. [She say i buy for the brand]

I do anything also wrong to her. Only she right, others all wrong. Only she clever, everyone all stupid. [er.. stupid me still make it to poly.]
Hai, poor mum.. also tio arrowed by her because only my mum arnd when she starts to nag. Mummy, I'm sorryyy!

But who cares.. Nadiah rocks.. I got the $$, got the energy, got the youth to party anrd. She is just plainly OLD

muahahaha..
evil grin =.='''

2007-05-29T11:28:00.000+08:00

enjoy the process,
ignore the ending?

can someone really do that?!
Hmm, i wonder, wondering if i can do so.

I'm not mighty girl, cant totally ignore my feelings. It could be beyond controls at times. I love to follow my heart but situation doesn't permit me to do so.

I will end up with Jason eventually.. Is that what i really wan?!
My heart says "No" but my mind say "Yes"

No for my heart has no place for other guys except boss!
Yes for Jason is a more ideal person to be my husband!!

So choosing the process or i should choose the ending?!
This is really confusing. But i made a choice already. I may not be able to be with the guy i like for now, but feelings can be developed. So if i choose Jason, we might end up getting happily married because he give me more security compared to boss.. My feelings for Jason may not win boss but i believe it can be developed over time.

But for now, i just want follow my heart.. TO be with boss, what is the outcome? i dun wan to care.. but when it's time to let go, i hope boss can do so. I will do so too..

Love is painful when u have to made a choice!

2007-05-26T17:01:00.000+08:00

spend the day out shopping for GSS.. woot!! spent $105.50 just at the apple-ing giordano.. wth..

er.. a little too ex.. i can go zara or mango get a dress le.. the brand is better i suppose.. But dunno which damn part of me ask me to buy!!

me so stupiddd~~ arghh.. regretssss!

2007-05-25T10:58:00.000+08:00

It's Friday!! woo~
simply love Friday.. Relaxation.. woo~

Hmm, ks is reli pushing us alot.. he gave us so many work.. I reli lazy to work, i just could balance my time between work, school work, relationship..

i just want to focus on my relationship but time do not permit. Work is inevitable, school has to be done.. wtf.. >=[

2007-05-24T17:15:00.000+08:00

Chatted with WC and Yirun. o.O
They made me realised what kind of life boss have been leading with them.. Appled!!
Guys will always be guys.. SO TICKO~ arghhhh..

Haha.. keep spamming those er.. *** emotions.. goodness! i feel so embarrassed at that point of time..

Hmm, seems like i have to do work again.. need to trash WC in dota, need to let Yirun trash me in badminton?! wooT!

busy dayyyy~ hehe

2007-05-24T11:37:00.000+08:00

An apple a day brightens up Gui wen's day.
I'm glad to be that apple. =))

Jingy, thks for the songs.. =) It's very nice.. woot! love u bitss <3
Fio~ let's go go makan more more.. yummy yum.. my lame khaki~

2007-05-23T16:06:00.000+08:00

That's When I Love You

When u have to look away
When u don't have much to say
That's when I love u
I love u just that way
To here u stumble when u speak
Or see u walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love u endlessly
And when your mad cause u lost the game
Forget I'm waiting in the rain
Baby I love u
I love u anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
U can count on me 4 life
Cause that's when I love u
When nothing u do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love u
When I love u
No matter what

So when u turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made u cry
That's when I love u
I love u
A little more each time
And when u cant quite match you clothes
Or when u laugh at your own jokes
that's when I love u I love u
More then u know
And when u forgot that we had a date
Or that look that u give when u show up late
Baby I love u ,I love u anyway

So here's my promise made tonight
U can count on me 4 life
Cause that's when I love u
When nothing u do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
That's when I love u
When I love u
No matter what

Ohh that's when I love u when nothing baby, nothing u do could change my mind
The more I learn, the more I love, the more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love u , when I love u no matter what

Ohhhh no matter what..

Boss this is for u!

2007-05-22T15:02:00.000+08:00

I'm walkin' in the rain
(Walkin' in the rain)

She walkin' in the rain
Just walkin' in the rain'

He walkin' in the rain
(Walkin' in the rain)

They walkin' in the rain
Just walkin' in the rain'

We walkin' in the rain
(Walkin' in the rain)

Walkin' in the rain,
And so, she blushed
and smile again. :)

2007-05-22T11:15:00.001+08:00

The guy who broke my heart is Boss!

I did all i can to secure his position in my heart, secure his insecurity, secure his inferiority.

But how can he break his promises again and again?! He told me he will brave through all these difficulties with me, share my woes and burden but why?! When i need him most, he chose to leave. He was the pillar of strength for me to move on, get things done, endure all the stress and pestering but he chose to leave me.

When he told me last night that he has something to tell me but asking me not to get angry, i knew he was going to say it "AGAIN!" I was hesitating to hear him out or just avoid but things have to be trashed out after all.

Yes, as what i expected he said "Nadiah, I'm giving u up!" These are the last words on earth i would ever want to hear it from him. I dun wan to give boss up, why must he do this to me?! Even he, the only one i can depend on, left me to battle on my own. Well, when he said that, my heart shattered! The pain was crucifying but i din shed any tears. I was holding everything deep inside my heart. The torment in my heart is killing me. I was in daze. Trying hard to hang on to whatever problems I'm facing.

Perhaps, my heart for love has died. I waited the whole night for boss to sms me or call me. But he didn't. In fact, the words and assurance i want to hear from boss came from another guy's mouth. I just want Jason's words to be coming out from boss..
For Jason, i will never go back to him. Boss is everything to me now in my heart but boss threw it all.

I gave boss up at 6.30am on 22 May 2007. Tear shed = 0. My heart is dead.

Boss gave me the time of my life. He spell b.l.i.s.s. and I learnt the meaning! I will remember the time we spend together although it lasted only for 3 weeks++

2007-05-21T16:41:00.000+08:00

A day off from work == babysitting =))

spell b.l.i.s.s.

2007-05-18T10:43:00.000+08:00

I simply <3 life after work.

Last night was a life experience of a mass rapid train gushing up your body, turning your body to be a dying weakling!!
Erm, 3 words to describe my feeling, hot fulfilling satisfaction

Girls and boys, please do not try this at home! =)

2007-05-17T15:46:00.000+08:00

Rainy day~ cool weather and extremely cold! Was practically freezing because was wearing skirt..

Went to Singapore Post@Paya Lebar to eat.. Took a cab down.. oh was drenched because i suppose to get in first, den yea jingy went in w/o her umbrella close so waiting for her meanwhile standing in the rain. =)

Reach there, was real windy. was on the phone and yea, both hands were busy, one holding hp, one umbrella and wallet. =) hmm no more hand to hold on my skirt and blouse.. woo~ flying here and there.. =)

We head to the KFC to eat our meeall... Yummy i ate bandito meal, changed my drink to milo and trade my whipped potato to cheeze fries so that i can share share.. =)

We head to watson to get umbrella.. Jingy was buying 2 foldable umbrella, one pink another lime green for only 3+.. woo~ nice bargains!

I head to NTUC to get a drink.. yes! was talking on the phone so as usual no hand.. yea.. was at the counter paying.. and my hands were pretty occupied so din realise the my umbrella hook my skirt up.. yes.. yes.. dunno if pple got see what colour i was wearing beneath.. maybe wasn't that jialat..

For those who saw, good for u.. for those dun, maybe next time.. that was a careless mistake..

Took a cab back, yea.. i din realise that there was a guy inside so i was like going in den eh.. got someone so i laughed and apologies.. The guy too dark la, camouflaged with the seat of the cab. =) i told jingy and she has the same sentiment as me. lol.. great minds thinks alike..

AS usual, hands was pretty occupied and was er... alittle drenched.. yea.. wanted to go out by the right door together with jingy and guess what..

She slammed the door and walked real fast to the lift. I was like "uh" and laughing away.. well, i got no hand to open the door mah, so i adjusted all my things to my left hand and open the door.. The security guard and another old man was laughing away.. yea, and me too.. Keep telling jingy, "ni peng you hai mei you xia che" but i guess she din hear that.. i was practically laughing at her Kanchiong-nism..

Hmm, we were pretty late alr.. We left at 1.40 and was back only like 3.40.. yea 2 hrs break..

a pretty nice lunch out with them =)

2007-05-17T13:13:00.000+08:00

Deep within me, i feel lost! I ever wonder why was i even existing in this world in the 1st place?!
Hankering over studies.
Hankering over material stuff.
Hankering over beauty.
Hankering over guys.
Hankering over stupid issues.
Hankering over relationship.

I don't have a reason to move on with life. My future seems very bleak! Am i living in the shadow of others or living for myself?!

I studied because my parents told me to.
I beautify because my friends told me to.
I live life with other people's expectation.. What about mine?!

I have been a cheerful girl but hidden behind those smile are pains, agony that only she noes it best. They were her best friends.

But well, life turn for the better i supposed!
I have 2 great working friends! [jingy n fio]
I have enlarged my circle of friends!
I meet the guy of my dream!

I have experienced the time of my life. LABELLED it the "WONDERFUL moments of my life". But HE IS SO SO SLOW!! SLOW POK!!

2007-05-16T13:14:00.000+08:00

3 words to describe how i feel today:

1. slpy (yawn~)
2. pissed (appled!!)
3. pain (ouch!!)

Gosh!! C.l.e.a.r?!

2007-05-15T17:07:00.000+08:00

Time to practice my English today.
Allow me to blog about my boss, KS whom i find him to be quite an interesting guy!

Perhaps, we are super lucky.. arghhhh. aiyo use normal english la.. like that type dunno until when den i finish.. Kao.

Okie me strt le..
Hmm. I always try to escape to lunch w/o my boss.. but damn suay one lor.. sure tio him.. KAO~

3 timess..wt apple~~

1. We heading to go lunch but was stopped and asked " go lunch huh? i coming with u!"
Oh apple, that was the 1st time.. lol.. he eat super fast, eating with him seems lime racing against time.. i also eat fast fast.. woo~ cant catch up with him so i gave up my food.. i think i ate half of it only.. Oh gosh! was feeling hungry when i'm back to the office.. Oh, he borrowed $2 from Hjing.. lol.. lucky he needs to head to the bank den only i have private moment with my girl.

2. We purposely went for late lunch because he got the tendency to go for lunch at 12. SIANZ~ i made wrong calculation.. PS team ask him for lunch and he said he had HEAVY BREAKFAST!! wt apple.. i miscalculated! sian sian sian.. I even forced him to go lunch with them. i said "Eh lunch cannot skip de.. must eat.. go la go la~" he replied me " i can go later mah~!" Zzz
AN hr later, Q asking "ANYONE FOR LUNCH?!" wah sian.. no one ans her.. Hjing on earpiece, KS act blur.. dun care.. I bo bian must answer her.. i said " hmm, we need to wait for PS team to come back!"
Den she left, 5 min later PS team came back! i faster escape for lunch but tio caught! haiz KS ask "i go with u!" I want to kill myself ar.. Q ask him like 5 min ago, lol he dun go, den come with us.. Argh.. he very zi dong. kao~

Oh he ate fish soup with rice. i noticed he talk alot.. His rice keep escaping out of his mouth. i was sitting right in front of him. Can u imaging how hard i try not to laugh?!! wahahahaha.. i was like.. enduring throughout the meal. His rice anyhow shoot one! there is this 1 particular rice, stuck on his lip and drop back into the bowl den i think he ate it and the rice escape again..

lol.. i reli laughing reli hard now just thinking back..

3. The 3rd time was today, i was too hungry because had only sandwiches for dinner.. so we went for lunch at 12. He FOLLOWED!! argh.. i was the 1st to escape, HUIJING got caught!! lol.. okie raining.. we bring umbrella.. he needs to take his umbrella from his car! we faster escape, walk or zoom to the carpark.. leaving him behind. Oh i feel bad!! so i ask them to wait for him..
As usual, he wan to eat fish soup with rice but both stall closed! He went to get nasi lemak. Oh gosh, he eat reli fast! Our food not here yet and he finished.. As usual,he talks and eat, eat and talk.. rice fly here and there.. i see huijing anf fiona trying not to laugh den i reli bth so I LAUGHED! i think ks was like "huh?"
But i reli bth..

i type so much liao.. laugh until my tear come out.. pple will think i nuts.. laugh at my screen.. =)

2007-05-14T14:04:00.000+08:00

High heels.

O.f.f.i.c.i.a.l
My 1st heels day today.. =)

my feelings: gosh!
painful + difficult to walk..

blame my family.. why u guys wear my flat shoes! at least leave me a pair. damn sian.. i will chop whoever legs that used my flat shoes today!!

high heels = living t.o.r.t.u.r.e
My goodness!!

food

2007-05-13T20:32:00.000+08:00

i love to eat so

my foresight about me is

a fatty to be = n.a.d.i.a.h

yes yes.. i noe.. it's okie.. fat = "fu"

2007-05-11T11:58:00.000+08:00

H mm.. haven't been blogging for long.. most prob will be giving up blogging soon. I feel extremely annoying when i work with Q. She sucks. She made me do sai kang job..

1. She place a document on my desk, i wonder who does it belongs to: she came and say "Oh, I'm waiting for u. Can u please blanko out the 2 alphabets. I was it to be transact instead of transaction.. i was like WTF.. Can u like do it yourself. Damn her.. and worst, she strt digging out all the files and ask me to do the same..
Damn bloody bitch man..

2. I was busy with my work. She call me and said "hmm, nadiah do you know where these softcopies are?" i was like Hmm.. sorry i dunno. Den she goes again "U are with the sales and marketing dept, YOU SHOULD KNOW!" and i go " hmm, i reli dunno" and she goes again "can u please find for me?"
Oh apple, how the hell would i know where the documents are placed?? There are damn hell of alot PC in the compamy.. Sucks..

3. She ask me to make some changes to a doc.. but she gave me the pdf formatted file. WTH.. ask me to follow the layout and images.. APPLE!! i have to slowly alight and printscreen.. I took the entire day to clear her damn things.
And worst of all, she is damn freaking particular about the layout. I tried my best to stick to that freaking layout using paint to edit.. This apple-ing comp do not even have simple designing application.

Even after pdf the file, i sent it to her. She sent it make to me and ask me make changes to like.. hmm " i find the line a little to big, can u like make it thinner and resend me in pdf format?"

Argh.. this damn comp take about 10 min to pdf the file.. for every single request she wan to change, i have to re-pdf it.. and guess what i did it for like 10 -15 times. she want this she wan that..
The most pekcek thing is aft i manage to did it[OT at that point of time], she say "hmm, anyway u send me today i also wun be able to see and send the client because he have alr left from work!" Damn apple-ing pekcek, den still make me stay back and finish. Her mother TOOT!!

4. The most recent one, she drag me to give support to the client.. Bleah >,< i reject her.. woohoo.. using BIG BOSS name.. lol..

I HATE Q.. SHE SUCKS A BIG TIME..
SHe is damn feaking proud of this line.
"OH! this is my 6 pregnancy and my 3rd child." Hmm she is proud having to miscarriage or she is proud that her hubby made love to her so many times.. =X

2007-05-02T13:04:00.000+08:00

2007-04-25T11:38:00.000+08:00

I'm bored!

2007-04-23T15:29:00.000+08:00

The real nightmare begins this week.

Oh gosh, i have to do some much coding for the download server issue. And worst of all, i dun even know how to use the application well. I guess i have to reli read up this time. I got no choice. It's almost so gosu, thier suggestion is god-like. They assume i know everything. I'm just a normal student with pretty cute looks, i do have smart brain but i was spoon-feeded when was in sch. We dun use simple application like they do so our mindset is very complex.
Now to get my brain to do the simpliest thing, i need some tuning.. Well, anyone willing to tune my head for me?! please step forward.

=)) i need to rush rush rush my work because presentation is end of this week * keeping my finger cross.. Best of luck to me >,<

2007-04-20T17:44:00.000+08:00

Cool Links..

1. Mona Lisa on Microsoft Paint
http://www.biertijd.com/mediaplayer
/?itemid=2163

2. Stylish Handphones
http://www.cameraphonesplaza.com
/10-coolest-concept-phones-out-there

3.Convert Photo to Text photo!!
http://photo2text.com/default.htm

4. Live Camera in Orchard!
http://www.opentopia.com/showcam
.php?camid=267

5. Cats!! SO cute
http://www.swcp.com/~jamii/OtherCats/

Check it out..

I agree.. she r.o.c.k.s

2007-04-20T17:29:00.000+08:00

Interesting desciption about me

Nadiah, my long time fav best friend, listed me in her blog as No.2 people that she finds interesting. The following is what she says:

Let me describe a few people whom i find interesting.

No 2 on my list will be Gerald Seah..
He is very cheeky. Beware of his "innocent" look, he has obsevant eyes that will penetrate thru your weaknesses and flaws.. LOL.. nice chat about J****.. haha

Somehow i find it true. She is so observant =D

cheers to nadiah!

Effort

2007-04-18T17:09:00.000+08:00

no matter how much effort she put it, it will end up in a wastage bin..
Should she give up?!! she is confused.

Her g.r.a.d.i.n.g scheme

2007-04-18T13:16:00.000+08:00

Today is my 7th day in Gridnode.
Company grading component:

Colleagues: B

Boss (KS): C
Big Boss (T): B+
Finance: A
PS: B
PD: C+

Equipment: D+
Facilities & amenities: C+
Accessibility: B
Food: C+
Workload: F

How's my company's impression on you?!!

[D]escribe them

2007-04-17T15:45:00.001+08:00

Let me describe a few people whom i find interesting.
No 1 on my list is definitely my boss, Mao Ze D*ng.

My boss claimed to be look-a-like leehom and jin cheng wu.
Well, for the reliability of this proclaim, please take a look at this picture. Picture 7 http://www.friendster.com/viewphotos.php#pic=0584201209.
Do tag me if this proclaim is reliable. ROLF!

No 2 on my list will be Gerald Seah..
He is very cheeky. Beware of his "innocent" look, he has an obsevant eyes that will penetrate thru your weaknes and flaws.. LOL.. nice chat about J*****.. haha

Last on my list is Huijing and Fiona.
They are super duper funny people.. Huijing can laugh like crazy.. laugh laugh laugh.. sometimes, i got injected by her humor and also laugh laugh laugh..
Fiona and huijing always got me blur blur den they wll laugh at me! so evil.. bully me =)).. Fiona, she is one reali franking funny sort.. I cant help but to laugh at her comment-ation of things arnd.. lol..

Cheers to my list of pple unique pple.. =))
Care pple.. lots of love..

The Tertiary Fling IV @ MoS

2007-04-17T12:09:00.000+08:00

The Tertiary Fling IV @ MoS

The Tertiary Fling IV @ MoS
Date: 26 April 07
Day : Thursday
Time: TBA*

Wanna have a night out full with fun?!! Join in the party!
Do tag me for free tickets..

[H]er l.i.k.e.s

2007-04-16T15:07:00.000+08:00

Ah.la..ka..ba....*** boom
Magic magic..

H]er l.i.k.e.s
*sushi
*ice.cream
*chocolate
*wines
*bikinis
*volleyball-ing
*badminton
*gaming (DotA, NFS and CS)
*yuki, yumi and sunsun

Boredom@grid****

2007-04-16T12:05:00.000+08:00

1st day of the week; working@gridnode w.o boss n co.
feeling empty!! and betrayed..
I miss my boss.. He is my vent-ing machine..
boss where are u!! sobsob =(

SILENCE!! shh..hh

2007-04-15T23:59:00.000+08:00

Ate sushi buffet
+ gelato ice cream wafer
+ starbucks caramel frac ice coffee
and lastly,
ending my entire day's menu with a
pub's nite drinkout.

Day's grading: bad

2006-04-28T15:14:00.000+08:00

Hmm, My IS module Intercultural Communication is not so bad after all.. Maybe i shld change my perspective toward it..

2006-04-25T23:54:00.000+08:00

Hmm, maybe things happen recently. some good some bad. i had fun with my attached class, T06, they are a bunch of cranky pple.. quite fun to chat with.. but they very dishonest.. always trying to escape.. bad boys.. the girls are fine.. the guys are more happening.. hmm..wun be seeing them till 5th May.. hmm, wonder is that a relief? hahaha.. Kind of enjoy their company..
Some guys' name i can rmb is Han Wen, Guo Qiang, Kelvin, Han Yang, Rohandy, Shi Hui, Steph, Shidah, Koh Li, Hwei Ming, Jazreel, Jing Min, Tiek Yong, Zhi yong, Samuel, Raymond, Guo Jie, Jin shen and the rest.. i cant rmb.. oops, i did a bad thing.. i act like kissing a guys.. argh.. so embarassing.. kissing rohandy.. oh my.. he shoo tall.. but it ws an act.. just angle view seem like kissing.. in fact, no body contact at all..

Hmm, i feel a little not well.. not in health term but my heart.. just feel a little uncomfortable with wat i heard and saw.. not bad mouthing me but still dun feel gd to hear such remarks coming from such good frenz of mine.. Nonetheless, i told no one how i feel. Everyone seems busy.. with school or new frenz.. well, i stand alone but i noe i have him behind me thought he doesnt show.. but not, i'm not certain.. =\

2006-04-20T14:09:00.000+08:00

The results of my kind of relationship..
Nadiah, the thing you need most in a relationship is Quiet Stability

In your ideal world, you would like a relationship structure that is fairly well set — one that doesn't change too often. Although relying on this routine may make it more difficult for you to cope with the inevitable fluctuations within any relationship, you're willing to risk that so you can have a strong sense of stability, security, and privacy with your partner. Because you and your partner would ideally have your patterns set, you'd likely encounter little conflict, and would enjoy the freedom to do your own thing. You desire a comfortable balance of routine and independence, and as long as neither partner's needs are being ignored, neither of you would need a demanding level of intimacy.

2006-03-30T18:47:00.000+08:00

Disheartened for unable to do things that i wanna do because it is beyond my reach.. Hmm..mm maybe i shld get real and evaluate my own assets before making any decision.. After all, i'm just me.. a ger that depends on people to get ends meet...

2006-03-28T00:08:00.000+08:00

Boredom revolved arnd me..

2006-03-26T19:31:00.000+08:00

Eh..
went suntec yesterday..

1. bought a bottle of coke frm YK.
2. take bus 56 down to suntec..
3. bought amos cookies to reward myself..
4. went to suntec to mummum.. Yummy
5. bought japanese rice.. yk say me cheapskate.
6. Jason bought black pepper omelette rice..
7. went to eat at food court..
8. Shop arnd after meal..
9. Arcade time.. played a interesting game
10. went to buy sushi..
11. chased after bus..
12.. home sweet hm...

eh.. i forget to include VOMITTING.. bleah.. sux...

2006-03-26T02:34:00.000+08:00

Well.. here come some updates..
All in one okie??? sorie abt that SUNDU.. haha
public apology neh~~~

Escape was awesome..
The Orange Julius hotdog is "BAGUS".
Wah, the first ride was the scariest in my life..but after that ride, the second was chicken feet.. The most feariest ride i think is the VIKING.. my first try was a truly one unforgetable shit.. so damn heart pumping.. i even wish it could stop asap.. even tears are out.. haha.. i was at the ultimate seat.. the last one.. eeeeeeeeeeeee~.. everything was so cooll.. Go-kart.. i was 3rd.. Wk cut me last min.. arghhhhhhhhh... KL first neh.. congrats but no prize.. haha...

MAC choc milk shake is "FAN-TASTE-GOOD"
i like.. yea...

Been lazing arnd doing nothing.. just got my results..
fared well.. not very promising but still good..
better than last sem..

hahahahahaha.. call in for a celebration with my wei..he is so sweet.. thanks for your TEMPURA.. it is so so so DELI-LICKING- cious..
thanks ah j j..

anyway.. update are more to come.. give me sum time.. haha.. need to recall..

cya.. chao~

2006-03-15T17:35:00.000+08:00

1 day to escape...

wee~

haiz.. heard that a handful of machine is down for maintenance..
Kaoz..

But nvm, tmr the queen is coming to escape..
Sure all games can play.
do yu noe who is the queen???

haha
think harder... weeee~

2006-03-14T18:51:00.000+08:00

2 more days to ESCAPE THEME PARk... weeeee~

one word to describe me is "excited".
hmm..mm.. wee~

happy nadiah..
School holiday is jsut so perfect..

Thank You Mr Tay..
you made my day yesterday.. hahaha..
Not today okie?!!! o.O

2006-03-10T17:20:00.000+08:00

A bright day ahead of us..

Hmm, boring staying at home..
I need sum happenings man.. wee~

geez~ miss siti look gorgeous on her engagement day..
Haiz.. wat a pity.. kaoz...

Anyway, looking forward to escape.. Play with all my guts out.. Anyone backing out???? wee~ hahaha

2006-03-07T00:36:00.000+08:00

Damn farking invisible..
i dunno i shld get involve..
Argh.. ignore all..
do it all yourself..
i'm not taking any responsibility..
damn..

2006-03-07T00:00:00.000+08:00

Haiz..

My condolence to my friend, XXX..
May your past on loved one be in good hands of heaven..
We will pray for you and her..
Take care of your health..
Dont be so grieve..

+sigh..hh+

2006-03-04T20:12:00.000+08:00

Anger....

I blown my tp today...
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~
i so so so angry.. arghhhhhhhhh..

2006-03-04T00:01:00.000+08:00

Disappointment...

Hmm, i feel a little disappointed in this little friend of mine... Hmm, maybe wat pple also say.. The higher your hope in them, the greater your disappointment will be.. Well, er... maybe i'm just nobody to this friend or mayb, we have became casual frenz w/o even knowing..

haiz.. a little heart rending for me to see this happen to us but circumstances changes pple to be wat they are now.. I dun blame anyone.. Hope they realise their doings...

God blesss....

2006-03-02T01:12:00.000+08:00

Wee~

No more exams..
No more Fulu..
No more BIS..
No more early morning..
No more squeeze bus..

Say bye bye to school.. Welcome my HOLIDAYS!!

Yea~ hehe.. i'm going to enjoy my holiday to the fullest.. expecting this holidays for so long..
hehe.. yea.. superb..
BADMINTON, SENTOSA, DOTA.. do it all..

Cmon..

2006-02-28T13:25:00.000+08:00

FreeDommmmmm~ after tomorrow..

Hmm, my last paper tmr.. i will be free after that most stressful paper of all.. Cant wait to finish the paper.. and also of coz score a fairly well grade. Hmm, a C+ will do.. i dun expect much.. because this is BIS PAPER.. wth...

Yea~ god please bless me with clear mind and peace at heart to conquer this paper well..
THANKS!!

2006-02-27T16:24:00.000+08:00

Fear...

Hmm, i feel a little worried about my BIS paper. I never pay attention in class during this lesson and also always skip this lessons.. Even got a warning leeter for my attendance for this module. Hmm, i wonder how will i fare for this paper.. I just dun wanna fail this BIS module.. Just a meagre pass will do the bits... I hope i hooe to pass this module.. Now i'm trying to absorb all the topic in the book.. A total of 12 topic i guess.. A hell lot of information to absorb. Hmm, i dun regret strting now or for sum who see this as late because i spent fruitful time with my love ones and friends.

Hee, i need lots of wishes of luck from everyone.. Please wish me luck.. Thanks...
God bless...

2006-02-25T23:58:00.000+08:00

My NF paper is down.. left with BIS.. a major problem for me.. Hmm, will try to score for his sake as well as mine.. Wee~

Den, when home with MEL and KAI SHENG and DIN and 1 "guest star", ANDY. We all sat the same bus 74 and me, MEL and ANDY alighted at the same stop.. Hee.. Actually i feel shy to approached Andy and say "HI' but MEL and me discussing.. damn funny.. we did a mine show.. ahahaa.. just guessing with our gestures.. wee~

Den head to JASON's place for lunch den eat eat eat den guess wat, I SLPT because i tooooooo tired liao.. over NF lor.. Hee~~~

Yea~ We dropped by to Sentosa today.. It was a truly tiring day but quite fruitful i guess.. We played volleyball as well as frisbi.. Chasing here and there.. We even played soccer with our FILA volleyball.. Oh my.. Hee~ eeeeeee... i feel so dirty lor.. so sandy and sand cover everywhere of me even my butt aso got sand.. kaoz.. Nonetheless, fun is all i can describe.. smelly also.. haiz...

Hmm, cant wait to have fun again.. yea..~

2006-02-23T23:53:00.000+08:00

Hmm...

A spasm of loneliness lingers in me..
Hee..

Exam stress..
Game stress..
Relationship stress..

My life is upside down... Hee..
But nvm, who cares...

I can manage all these with MEL..
Maybe the best thing i have ever had was to
have a real BOSOM FREIND, MEL.

THANKS MEL..
You nv fail to listen to my sorrow,
share with me the pain endured,
console me and lead me out of
the darkness...

Hmm, i reli feel happie to have
a wonderful fren like u..

Haa... Anyway, nothing is gonna
beat me down.. Hee..

I fend for myself..
Love NADIAH,
Put mysel before anyone..
I dun wish to get hurt again..
Wahaha...

CHEERIOS!!

2006-02-21T16:32:00.000+08:00

Exam is near...

Hmm, i'm still slacking..
Just dunno y..

The interest is not there.
Anyway, i will still try my best..
for his sake.. as well as mine..

Hmm, dunno wat else to blog le..
shall blog after my last paper on
1st March..

Den HOLIDAYZ..
Hurray!!

2006-02-18T00:03:00.000+08:00

GOOD NEWS!!!

YEAH!!!
Miss Siti is getting...
ENGAGE on 5th March 06,
at 3.00pm..
Her place...
She inviting all students to her place..
Only ART student -SHIWEN's message..

So bad.. humph!! i cant bring my khakis..

But nadiah say "WHO CARES!"
i will still bring ah j and yk and wk and jh and
kl and everyone to share the joy together..

Hehe.. I'm so happie for Miss Siti..

may she enjoy blissful happily ever after..
Nadsiah's heartiest congrats to miss Siti..

Cheerios

Er..

Dunno me..
I was in good mood recently..
mel, me and J okie le..
I just cant leave him.. Sorrie..
But i'm sure you will be happie for me.. Right?

Anyway, exam is here.. stress anf fred over it but
er.. i will try for his sake as well as mine.

Hee, anyway, i just felt happie lately..
No reasons.
Just happie..
Cant explain myself either..
Hehe

2006-02-13T20:44:00.000+08:00

FOR THE GUYS TO READ..

please realize that the girl holding onto u..is PERFECT in their own special way.
The way she laughs..The way she sleeps..The way she loves you..The way she tries to please you...
Always remember that.
She can always walk away and up,getting someone else who can love hermore.
For all you know,there is someone out there wooing heralready,but she is rejecting,a maybe perfect love for her..
There might also be someone out there..who is willing to love her more than youare lovingher now,fufill her every need and love her asmuch as sheloves you.
Understand that.
Girls have a huge guilty concience....imagine this, guys.When you are holding her today...and then you cheat on her by huggingand kissinganother gal.and then you run back to her...and u do the same....but you see love in her eyes...What do you think?Do you feel the hurt?Can you feel the guilt?
She loves you not because you aregood looking,have money,buy her things,make her parents happy,or that you have a car.
She loves you for who you are.Your every touch, every word you say, everythingyou do.
Cherish and appreciate your girl.Don't break her fragile heart.She is the only one who can love you that way.You won't wanna regret letting go of that specialgirl you have.For everything she has done for you, the leastyoucan do is to give her unconditional love as shehas given to you.
This is the advice i can give for guys.

2006-02-13T20:28:00.000+08:00

The Note:

nursing a broken heart.

looking for the other side
of her life.

Trying to cheer up..
bcoz smile is her tradeamark

Just hope to tide over this crisis.
God bless her.

smiling still,
nadiah

End of note.

2006-02-10T16:29:00.000+08:00

yeah.. finally all my assignment and project is done..

Hahahahaha..
1st is IAC - wah lao.. last min everyone tell me we do wrong and it's just 1 day to the presentation.. haiz.. den i one-man show lor.. i do the presentation.. myself.. but still lucky me, manage to finish the whole thing lor.. But report still havent finish so on that day itself i do the report with some help from my group mate..

2nd is COMT- also last min printed the hardcopy... lolz.. I think our presentation was the shortest among all.. The first group took nearly one hour to finish our presentation.. WTF...

3rd is UID.. - it was a breeze thru man.. haha.. the teacher has been fooled by us.. Yea.. also last min add things lor.. We even cheated the teacher, blaming on technical fault whereas we plug the wire out ourself boz we noticed we short of some information.. Do on the spot ad keep lying is the key to success..

4th is OOP walkthrough- this is later in the evening at 5.30.. havent been to walkthrought yet.. Currently still waiting till time passes to 5.30.. now is only 4.50.. Haiz.. But finally, i fnished OOP thanks to Mellissa.. She has been a great help.. THANK YOU MELLISSA.. love u gal..

2006-01-25T19:41:00.000+08:00

i'm totally trashed.
I hate myself.
Who can i rely on?

Just myself?
I can rely just on my own without a supporting voice to tell me
if i shld go on or stop here.

Haiz....

2006-01-25T10:24:00.000+08:00

Stress lies beneath her breath.
Screams overwhelmed her head.

Argh!!
.....
She is going crazy..
damn crazy..

not over him..
but over school..

She is crazily in pain..
HEADACHE!!!

2006-01-24T12:54:00.000+08:00

Bliss found just today.

I found the bliss i have lost in me for a long time
just today at 12.04am.

Hmm, i just feel that my man is back..
the real man i want out of him.
i just feel so good. so so good.
thanks j.

Hmm, he's the man.. the hero in my life.
The rule with great leadership.
Woo~ just strt to notice him.
Miss his forte for all this while.
Blinded by sadness that overwhelmed me.
I'm sorry is the way to forget all our history.
Please pardon my attitude for all i do,
It's just for you.

love, Nadiah

2006-01-23T20:22:00.000+08:00

Assignments are all over me..

hmm, been busy with loads of assigments as school for this year is coming to a closure..
Woo~ exam is just early next month..February.. There goes my valentine day.. Oops..
just 3 more weeks to sloggg my guts out all all my assignments.. Hmm, there is OOP assignment, UID assignment, IAC assignment and Lastly, COMT kit assignment...
Oh gosh.. damn hell of alot..

But no choice..
Struggle my way thru..
Strt earli...
Hahaha... An advive..

Apple reali make my day..
=)

2006-01-22T23:02:00.000+08:00

Disappointment

i dunno wat to say.
i just can say i'm disappointed.
I'm utterly disappointed.
very very disappointed.
There is no more hope anymore for me.
I just lost all of them.
Not a single bit of hope left in me.
After so much persuasion,
he nv fail to drop my esteem down the drain.
I reli dunno wat to do now.
just a pure mind of nothing left in it.
crying and arguing leads to no where.

Maybe in me now is nothing.
I'm just a pretty empty shell on the outside.

Hahahahahaha..
a laughter out of fake strong act i put up.

2006-01-22T15:12:00.000+08:00

Equations
1. bad*mood = bad.day
2. bad*mood + smile = bad.day -1/2 bad.day + average.day
3. bad*mood + smile + laughter = bad.day - 1/2 bad.day + good.day

So my day today is 2.

Hmm, just sum misunderstanding and losing made the day quite bad.
Likewise sum unnecessary arguments.

2006-01-21T22:53:00.000+08:00

Two warning letters?!!

Hmm, wat have become of her?!! Just dun understand her sumtimes..
In the past, all she wan is to enter poly..
Now she has achieved her wish yet she is gambling her chance away.
Just dun understand her.

Haiz, maybe.. life is different for her now.
cruel reality struck her hard..
Hmm, feeling of frustration runs deep in her.
Still water running deep.
All she can say now!!

2006-01-19T14:07:00.000+08:00

Feeling abit numbed and expressionless...

I dunno wat to say about my relationship, family, life and school..

Practically, everything is very intense for me now..
I just feel so so so.. stress and confused..
I aso dunno wat else to help myself..
I dun have any support frm anyone.. so i feel rather lost at times.

I do have a family but i seldom can feel at home eventhough i'm at home.
I do have a boyfriend but i dun feel the support i have frm him altoe he is just by me.
I have friends but practically all my frenz are busy with sch and life.
I have myself but myself is now so lost and confused so myself cannot think properly.
Hmm, so how?

I just think i will smile my way thru..
and bring light to my darkest hours.

I blie in GOD. so he will help me breeze thru this tides..
Thanks god..

P.S i wun give up on him bcoz everyone has their busiest time.
I will support him as well as myself during this period of time bcoz he need me support.
I will have to be strong bcoz everyone need me..
Dear, i love you.
Mum, Dad i still love you.
My family, i will support u.
My frenz, i will wait for you.

Thanks Mellissa for being there for me..
=).. mwah3
My life, i will have to make you suffer for a while.

Farkin!! hate them...

2006-01-18T19:15:00.000+08:00

I damn farking angry when i see this video..

I just dun understand y this pple are so cruel..
These animals are so so poor thing.. Haiz..

Please be wise on purchasing item next time..
Help save these animals.

Argh,, fark those pple..

Cruel video..
http://192.192.241.98/fur.wmv

End of paper!!

2006-01-12T12:41:00.000+08:00

NYP.. Common test end for him.

She was happy.
Finally,
His paper ended
for good.

Now, she and him has
all
the
time in the
world...

she feel happy
as she can finally
get to company her
guy.

2006-01-09T23:20:00.000+08:00

.:Happiness.lies.in.your.hand:.

Thanks to Mellissa virus.. Thank u so much
I noe wat to do.. and how to go about doing...
Hmm, feeling reli happy now.. Yahooooooo~

2006-01-07T19:15:00.000+08:00

.:*a.sense.of.relief*:.

Hmm, after penning down all i have to say to him,
i feel that everything that i have hid in me is all
poured out at one time. Nv feel so relieved before.

Hmm, Life is meant to be happy, it all depends on
myself to make life happy or sad. I chose to lead life
miserable so my life before was reli of misry, pain
sorrow, hurt, everything u name. Why life is such
a painful thing? Haiz...

Letting go is a real hard thing but learning to let go is
a process of learning. Haa.. i'm learning lor.. hee..
Give me sum time.. I will brace up...

Msg is left for him there. our blog. Read it. U will noe.
Take care. I love him.

2006-01-06T22:40:00.000+08:00

Meaning.of.my.life

no.one.noes.this.better.than.me.myself.and.i.
my.life.is.worthless.haa.haa.
dun.console.me.bcoz.u.dunno.wat.i.am.going.thru.
just.read.and.listen.bcoz.i.need.sumone.to.listen.to.my.agony.
Hmm.i.dun.think.i.will.share.with.you.my.problems.but.just.need.to.rant.

no.matter.wat.i.will.be.brave.and.patient.in.handling.my.affairs.
i.blie.this.is.a.test.from.all.mighty.above.
i.noe.life.in.future.will.be.better.
trust.him.like.i.do.

I.still.love.him.
i.noe.
i.still.need.him.
i.noe.
but.i.need.to.find.him.back.
b4.i.lose.him.totally.

2006-01-06T14:23:00.000+08:00

Hmm, OOP.. manageable..

Haha.. yeah.. oop is my most confidence paper.. haha.. yea.. Nf my worst.. Haiz.. but finally exam over yea.. hahaha... happy happy.. play time everyone..