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` Tuesday, May 22, 2007
The guy who broke my heart is Boss!

I did all i can to secure his position in my heart, secure his insecurity, secure his inferiority.

But how can he break his promises again and again?! He told me he will brave through all these difficulties with me, share my woes and burden but why?! When i need him most, he chose to leave. He was the pillar of strength for me to move on, get things done, endure all the stress and pestering but he chose to leave me.

When he told me last night that he has something to tell me but asking me not to get angry, i knew he was going to say it "AGAIN!" I was hesitating to hear him out or just avoid but things have to be trashed out after all.

Yes, as what i expected he said "Nadiah, I'm giving u up!" These are the last words on earth i would ever want to hear it from him. I dun wan to give boss up, why must he do this to me?! Even he, the only one i can depend on, left me to battle on my own. Well, when he said that, my heart shattered! The pain was crucifying but i din shed any tears. I was holding everything deep inside my heart. The torment in my heart is killing me. I was in daze. Trying hard to hang on to whatever problems I'm facing.

Perhaps, my heart for love has died. I waited the whole night for boss to sms me or call me. But he didn't. In fact, the words and assurance i want to hear from boss came from another guy's mouth. I just want Jason's words to be coming out from boss..
For Jason, i will never go back to him. Boss is everything to me now in my heart but boss threw it all.

I gave boss up at 6.30am on 22 May 2007. Tear shed = 0. My heart is dead.

Boss gave me the time of my life. He spell b.l.i.s.s. and I learnt the meaning! I will remember the time we spend together although it lasted only for 3 weeks++
signing.off -[N]a.*- ナディア



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Nadiah

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Her Past ;

hatin` me w0nt make y0uu an inchh better off than ME;

there's nowhere to run
i have no place to go
surrender my heart body and soul
how can it be you're askin` me to feel the things you never show


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